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Tuesday, June 24, 2003
I am tired…
It’s not that I had a busy day. I had a busy walk. A fifteen minutes walk. Under those scorching rays of the sun. On the streets of Rawalpindi. Wse tried to warn me. And I didn’t listen. That’s why I am tired. I should be.
I almost always don’t have any clue what am I going to write in here. Most of my entries are full of crap. Same old studies thing. Same old talks about busy routines. Don’t I have anything else to think of and write about? May be yes, may be no. I wanted to share my thoughts by writing in here. May be I don’t think anymore. May be I don’t use that medium which is needed to think something. Or may be I am too afraid to share what I think.
Now that would make me a coward, right? Never mind. Cowards make the brave.
The fact is, that my mind has been a great machli bazar for a last few days. So many things had been coming in and going out of my mind that I didn’t know what to do. I wondered about what I thought I was, what I was, what I think I am, what I am, what I think I will be, and what I will be. I remembered that lecture when Mr. Najam asked us about our needs. I replied that I wanted to be myself. Now I wonder if what we want is really what we need. Or is our need what we want? Is there a difference between need and want?
I don’t know if I’ll be able to differentiate between these two, but I have just known that I talk a great deal of philosophy. Sorry guys, if I bored you above, but I just couldn’t stop. A fifteen minutes walk in such heat can make you go philosophical quite easily.
So I guess I better go to my bed. After all, I am tired.