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“The only thing which you really need,” he said as he looked directly into my eyes, “is balance.”
My problem is that whenever I want to disagree with him, I don’t. I can’t. Same is the case when I want to agree with him. He has got that something in himself which makes me feel that he is my greatest friend and, at the same time, my greatest enemy. Who he really is for me, is still a mystery.
I have known him ever since I have known myself. He is always there to criticize on my decisions and make me go mad. He is always there too when I need some help. He has been my right hand (and left too) during all my ultay seedhay plans. Still I don’t think I have been able to understand him. All I know about him is that he is both a genius and an idiot. A devilish angel, whose only job in the world is to guide and mis-guide me.
When I first told him that I am going to quit Blogistan, he had laughed so loudly that I thought he would burst. When I asked him why he was so amused, he replied that he doesn’t think that would do any good to me.
“And why not?” was my question.
“Because you think that by doing this you’re going to start studying,” he was still smiling, ” which I know you wouldn’t.”
I silently agreed, though I wanted to disagree. And now that I am typing these lines, I admit that he was right.
He had laughed again very hard when I told him that I am going to resume my journal. “I knew it. I always knew it.” And as I looked at him with slight waves of anger in my eyes, he laughed again. “Look my friend, the only thing which you really need,” now he was looking into my eyes, “is balance.”
“What do you mean?” I felt irritated.
“I mean you need balance.”
“But you know that I am good at doing many tasks at the same time.”
“Agreed. But how many times have you completed those same-time-tasks successfully?”
I was silent. He laughed again. “That’s where balance comes in.”
What followed was a complex lecture on what I was mis-doing. He thinks that if only I know how to strike balance among so many interests of mine, I can become such a great person like him. (I couldn’t say that I disagree with the ‘like him’ part.) He said that if I try just a little I can know how to be a ‘balanced’ person. And he also said that I’ll always need his help.
Why would I always need his help?
“Because I live inside you.” He said.
I checked. He was right. He really lives inside me. In fact, he is me.
Or I am him. Don’t know.
14 comments
Saadat
May 22, 2004 at 1:22 pm
Afterword:
First, thanks to all those people, including my friends and different bloggers, who inspired me while writing this post.
Second, this post is a work of factual fiction. Any similarities with my life (or for that matter, Saadat’s) may or may not be coincidental.
Third, I am still trying to figure out if I am a victim of multiple personality disorder.
Aysh
May 22, 2004 at 4:47 pm
Welcome back Saadat! * Dances with joy* i was really hoping you’d come back. blogistan is getting sleepy. we need action. we need excitement. we need more people who would update regularly (yes, you may not notice the blush on my face).
About the Multiple personality, let me quote again from one of my the numerous books i have read on Sunsigns,” Geminis are people of different moods and diferent thoughts. In fact there are eight people living within a Gemini. JUst when you thought you had known one, you may see a complete different persona. Thats what makes them so perfect”
My theory is that, Everybody has different personalities living with in them. In a way that is better cause it makes us better human beings and also they make us realise our mistakes and learn fromstuff (i say ‘stuff’ not ‘mistakes’). but all pilosophy aside, WELCOME BACK SAADAT!! balance or no balance, it’s impossible to stay away from blogworld. i tried it once, you’ve tried it twice (for whatever reasons we did, is different matter), but we came back and taht feels good!
Aysh
May 22, 2004 at 4:49 pm
Aaaaaaaagh! spelling mistakes……. !
Aysh
May 22, 2004 at 4:55 pm
waise…June aaraha hai
AWK
May 23, 2004 at 3:13 pm
Aysh: Ab yeh June kon hai?
Welcome back Saadat. As long as your ‘alter-whatevers’ want you to update your blog, your are finely balanced.
“Once a blogger, always a blogger. “
jogia
May 24, 2004 at 6:49 am
heyyy jigarr!!! kidaaann!! kaisa hay set hay na!! good to see you back dude!! enjoy!!
Laura
May 24, 2004 at 7:39 am
Yay! You’re back!
Love the post.
Anne
May 24, 2004 at 11:20 am
You’re back! Yey!
Nice post — sort of a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde setting!!
Keep posting in your journal — just remember to balance your priorities!
Saadat
May 24, 2004 at 1:01 pm
Aysh: Yep, June is coming!
AWK: June is the month I and Aysh were born in!
Jogia: Me is aik dam first class, meray bhai!
Laura: Thanks for liking the post
Anne: Hmm … Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I actually like them … er … him.
Moiz
May 24, 2004 at 7:55 pm
gud 2 c dat ur bak!i know-even i gave up blogging(long time ago), but it didnt help-so im bak!wud it b wishful thinking to hope dat all ur alters wud want to blog,perhaps??!!lol!!!so i guess ur done with ur studies/exams?wot brought u bak 2 blogging?
~~~SAAHIR~~~
May 26, 2004 at 11:53 pm
poor gemini.
the twins.
Sara
May 27, 2004 at 5:23 am
You’re a gemini?? I’ve heard Geminis are two-faced but I completely disagree. My dad’s a gemini too!
Anyhow, good to see you back. I hope your not into any kind of wars right now!
Sara
May 27, 2004 at 5:25 am
Just had to comment again. This ‘wink’ smiley face is so wicked!
Saadat
May 28, 2004 at 8:33 pm
Moiz: Nopes. My studies are on their way. It’s just that I wanted to get ‘balanced’. Sigh!
Saahir: Yep. Poor me.
Sara: Great, your Dad’s a Gemini! And yeah, no wars!